Letters: Part Six

This is part six of the letters sent between me and my wife shortly before and after meeting in person for the first time.

Letter 16

My love,

I am sitting here, just finished with my homework, watching you sleep, thinking just how badly I want to be there in bed with you right now. The idea of touching you again, smelling you, being near you; it intoxicates me. I’m not sure what’s so rough about you being the CE of the Quibbler. You’re doing an amazing job of it so far. You are far too creative, intelligent, and incredible to think that you’ll be any less than phenomenal at your job. I will be here every step of the way with you. Everything you do will have me right by your side the entire way. Nothing will stop our papers from becoming the best damn papers on any “World of” site. Just like in real life, we can accomplish anything together, and I want nothing more than to hold your hand and walk through any fires that try to surround us. Sean and Emily. Pirro and Rhea. The world revolves around us, babe, not the other way around. I love you so much and will be here through every single thing that gets thrown either of our ways. Together, babe, we’ll surpass the impossible. 

I hope you have a phenomenal day at work, I cannot wait to hear your voice when we both wake in the morning, and I love you dearly. Sweet dreams, my love! 

Love,

Sean

Letter 17

Sean,

That was beautiful, as always. I hope you know that applies to you. As you’re working through your homework, and I’m sure you’re feeling overwhelmed and frustrated, I will be there with you every step of the way. I know this isn’t easy, I know you don’t want to do it anymore, but I am here for you. I know this will pay off for you in the end, and I know you know that too. I’m proud of you babe, really, I admire you every damn day. You are truly inspiring and I couldn’t be happier to call you mine. 

I too struggle, I want to touch you, smell, be near you every moment of everyday. Nights are still the hardest for me. Though, even today on the car ride to work, I so badly wanted you in that seat next to me, talking, and holding my hand. I wanted that comfort of your presence and your reassuring touch. I know the christmas music has been annoying, but I appreciate your patience with it. Strangely, it has brought me a very small amount of comfort. Knowing that as we near closer to that time, I will have you in my arms again and I will be in yours. 

We’ll make it through this. I know we will. We’ve already made it a week and for how we feel, we’ve already done wonderfully in my eyes. I know we’ll make it because everyday I look at you, I know how much I love you, and when I catch you looking at me, I know how much you love me. I know that this sucks, but it is temporary, and someday we won’t have to do this anymore. I look forward to that time, but for now I am extremely grateful for what we’ve got, because there was a time we didn’t have this at all, and I never want to go back to that time. I love you, so much. You’re right, we can conquer anything, because we have each other and our love. 

We’ll make it through this. I know we will. We’ve already made it a week and for how we feel, we’ve already done wonderfully in my eyes. I know we’ll make it because everyday I look at you, I know how much I love you, and when I catch you looking at me, I know how much you love me. I know that this sucks, but it is temporary, and someday we won’t have to do this anymore. I look forward to that time, but for now I am extremely grateful for what we’ve got, because there was a time we didn’t have this at all, and I never want to go back to that time. I love you, so much. You’re right, we can conquer anything, because we have each other and our love.

Love,

Emily

Letter 18

Emily,

Your words right there brought me so much comfort. They gave me so much strength and motivation to complete my day. Your words did that for me. The power of the written word gave me so much motivation that I began smiling when I read it. I actually still have a gleam in my eyes that wasn’t there when I woke up this morning. Deep inside your mind, you feel that we’ll overcome anything together. I know you’ve gotten into the funk today, but when the day finally ends, and you get off work, you’ll have me for the rest of the night. “But for now I am extremely grateful for what we’ve got, because there was a time we didn’t have this at all, and I never want to go back to that time.” Truer words have never been spoken. Even though I’m not there to hold you, hug you, kiss you, or just have a presence, that doesn’t mean that I’m not there mentally, psychologically, and emotionally. Even if it’s over a phone and eight hours away, my love for you knows no boundaries…no limits, no control. Nothing will stop us, babe. Our love is limitless, just the possibilities and opportunities in our lives and the adventure on which we’ve embarked. Everything is us, babe. Everything, in the end, will work out beautifully, because we have each other. I love you. 

Thank you for being there for me throughout those last two days of hell. I’m not entirely certain I would have made it through them without you. Yes, I spent like eight years doing homework like that before I met you, but much like our conversation last night, I’m not sure how I ever did it without you. You are my catalyst, my rock, and my motivation. Thank you so much for the words of affirmation, encouragement, and love. I am so grateful to have you through this process. Everything makes so much more sense when you’re with me. Without you, everything feels hazy and gray, and I would prefer a good technicolor in my life (CHEESY AS FUCK, but I kind of liked that analogy). I will never be able to show you how grateful I am for everything. Thank you, Emily. I love you. 

Normally I would write a lengthy love note to you, but today, I’m pretty tired, so I figured I’d settle for a loving, small, and quality note. I love you, babe. You’ve been my rock for the last few days, and I know you’ll continue to be as such forever. I am going to miss you so damn much while you’re at work today, but I know the time will fly. We have TWD, movies, and a night spent together to look forward to after your day of work. I cannot wait, and I love you so much. Have a phenomenal day at work, my love! 

Always yours,

Sean

Letter 19

My doll,

I know it’s scary, Trust me.. There’s a reason I live with my father. I really can’t swing living on my own yet, unless I want to give my daughter nothing but our own place. It scares me to think that I may never be able to live without being dependant on someone. Sadly, that’s on me and I know there are things I can do to change that. But, I want to be dependant with you. I want to lean on you and for you to lean on me. For us to stand strong because we have one another. I will do whatever it takes to get us through anything. If there is ever a time where I need to support our family, I will do that. I will do anything for you, for us, and for our children. I’m scared to, but I’m excited as you are, because I have you and I know it’ll be one hell of an adventure. 

That little girl will love you no matter what, Sean. You will not let her down because you will always keep trying. It’s the moment you stop trying that you fail, and I know you never will. You learn, and listen, you play and reprimand, you fight and you forgive. You’ve proven to me you can do all these things and that right there is more than Ad has ever had. She will love you and look up to you. She will see you and decide that she deserves a man like you, she will look at us and see that she deserves a love like ours, and she will look at our family and see that she deserves that forever. You will giver her something no one can until she is a woman and can find it. She gets to experience unconditional love from someone who doesn’t have to love her. Only you can give that to her and I know you will. 

Whatever fears we may have, we can face them together hand in hand. I’m scared too, but that’s a good thing. There’s a quote about it somewhere, I should find it.. About,  without fear we’d something.. Hm.. anyways. Fear is good as long as it doesn’t hold us back That is why we have each other. When one stops dead the other pulls us forward. We complete one another and make up there the other lacks. If we’re both scared, we have one another to comfort and confide in, and we can persevere through it together. 

Forever yours,

Emily

*All letters left exactly as written. I made zero edits to the writing.

**More letters to come!

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